Jcyf94's Blog

I am sharing my experience so maybe by the slightest chance either others would share their similar experiences and figure out a way to deal with them or through a properly structured system, I would succesfully learn to utilize the internet to succesfully establish a defensive mechanism realistically, so I can find a place online where I can find other people with similar values, experiences, difficulties, and goals to establish something that resembles a community, where what I have to offer would be genuinely useful, helpful and appreciated, as I would feel to others’ share experiences. I do not want to spend excessive amount of time online without a purpose or wasting time sitting and wondering what to do and where to go from here. I like to use internet as  part of solutions to my problems and engine to my growth, not a place to escape from reality and a channel to be exposed the ugly, sadistic and cruel aspects of human existence behind anonimity and the first amendment. I like to believe that with collective efforts, the rapid spread of socially Darwinistic way of living can be effectively countered, as well as the feeling of helplessness, powerlessness, isolatedness and being controlled by fear and paralyzed by despair. I wish to restore my eroding trust and optimism towards the local environment, the  fellow human beings, and the world. I do not expect miracles, saviors or utopia. I have personal stake in this. I have left too many virtual footprints not to continue chasing.