Jcyf94's Blog

There are people, some of whom I know, some of whom I do not know, that want me slowly or quickly tortured to death or worse.  This will sound like a gross exaggeration, except many of these people I know do not bluff and are capable of anything, as they have proclaimed themselves deity already.  I have lived in constant vigilance and expected at anytime that I will be within their palms to be squeeze to death.  I can only deal with fear and record what is in my mind, as I could only do for years. To subsist and survive long-term constantly lingers in my mind but I do not know how at this moment.  Nobody has ever threatened my existence before and one does not get to practice how to subsist and survive.  People talk about decency, conscience and sense of shame.  After I have been terrorized for years, those attributes erode like dripping water slowly drilling a hole on a rock.