8 May 2012: Statement

I have misspoken in the past on several occasions on different platforms. Sources which I considered credible at the moment were feeding informations to me that were erroreous or misleading to me in many ways. I do not recall everything that I wrote, especially that which I had deleted or commented on others’ posts, that is untraceable or unretreavable at this juncture.
If anything I said that was untrue or misleading, I will apologize to whomever that were affected by my words. I do not know how to properly apologize under the current climate, but I have not forgotten my experiences or repercussions, however strong or insignificant they had been or might have been. I cannot guarantee that I will not misspeak in the future, for I do not know what the proper and responsible things to do should be at any given moments.
I have been living under chronic mental anguish for the past 3+ years, now accompanied with constant physical pains. I hope knowing my current state would provide some comfort and satisfaction to those whom I had offended and those who have been driven for paybacks and retribution.
I am holding on to a belief that silence means acceptance to my current fate, that a state of terror is to be the norm from now on. If I have the control to my own fate, as opposed to a predetermined mandate, I will not accept continuing to be terrified, in silent resignation.
If I have lost such control, I hope that it would be made known to me, clearly. I deserve at least that much after three years in artificial vacuum.