10 November 2012: Keeping Hope while in Excruciating Pain

by jcyf94

Every time you got kicked all over the body, zapped by electric currents, and shot repeatedly in the head, your body got more worn out, your brain got more damaged, and your inner despair got more ingrained within your psyche.

You also learn how to heal your inner trauma and deal with your past memories when no one is willing and able to help you d…eal with that which cannot be spoken and will not be believed or comforted.

The perpetrators are going to force the pain and damages upon you until you are feared into silence and obedience. Further pain and damages might continue, but by then nobody knows, remembers, or cares, and you would become accustomed to periodical physical and mental abuses without a sound.

That is the unconditional surrender to power of tortures and despair that comes with it. If you still have strength within, you say out load that tortures are wrong, whether visible or not. You reject despair with your last breath because you witness and remember despair, as painful your body is and exhausted your mind at this point.