13 November 2012: Hitting the Curve Balls and Keeping up with Kings, Alphas, and Predators…

by jcyf94

…seems to have been too late at this time to adapt to life under autocracy, aristocracy and meritocracy, allegedly, especially the constant sccumulating distress and sudden debilitating trauma in real value that I must be aware of at all time. What people deem to be the core of my problems is in fact the very few relief and safety net for my curr…ent status quo.

I spent whole day digging out and putting up posts about certain specific issues, mostly to try to establish that such issues can no longer be treated as non-issues, as how they had long been introduced into my life abruptly but affected enough incrementally that I cannot pinpoint on a specific collapse which lead to my plight today.

So I might make sense to some and not to others. I am preparing describing the turning point carefully so that it will be understood. All these articles, all these unpleasantries, I do not mean to put focus or get back at any party, since I was really blindsided and totally sacked and fumbled without any mental preparation, and did not know how I was tackled until few days ago.

I am doing this because I need to stop the assault, the trauma, and the heresy, hopefully to save my life and my future.. I seriously do not know how much time I have, so I am not holding back anything. I cannot neglect the past like many attempted to convince me so. It needs to be sorted out and filled in so I will not keep being scapegoated by people well-hidden.

The truth need to come out and the terror must stop soon. Three years of paranormal existence cannot be summarized easily, but that is the task. Even if I am the last to know, the uncertainty of silence is driving me further south, and I cannot stand it anymore.

So let it be.