Jcyf94's Blog

I cannot accuse anyone. I did not expect anything. They have been done. I cannot condense three years of experiences, or even three specific days of Trauma, into languages. Nobody is going to believe, empathize, or help in any form. I am just trying to seek hope where there is none. There are psychological and physical tortures, they are intention…al, and they are ongoing. I just try to dig out the truth, and piece together what exactly happened. I was isolated from the outside world and I had learned my lessons when I told the truth earlier this year. I have to choose my words carefully, but when the attacks strike you, you do whatever you can to get relief from the pain and the terror. Facebook gives me a sense that there might be a slim hope that there is an end to the tortures, even though from memories of past 4 years, I have always been a target. This is a public forum. I would not ever mention much of the things I said were it not for excruciating fear, pain and hatred, that I am not able to defend myself against such type of tortures, gather evidence that such tortures happened and know the identity of my tormentors for certain. It happened in Hong Kong. It happened here in Taiwan. I am dying to point fingertowards who I think is guilty of such crime, but it is much more complicated than that, and I cannot trust anyone with details, especially here where information is bought and sold. When I say vendetta, it is no exaggeration because they targeted my parents as well and I am not capable to protect, or even comfort them. If you know the experiment of Learnt Helplessness, I am the dog and clearly deemed sub-human to the perpetrators as well. It will be a war of lifetime and there is no salvation. I have only my words, my sanity and my conscience. This is my last resort. The powerful are often sadistic and enjoy the suffering of their lesser. I heard enough stories since childhood to know what I am up against and I have no choice. Human lives are expendable anywhere.