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Never in my wildest dream would I ever anticipate that I have become my parents’ most hated enemies, especially me.

While I was incapacitated, worrying sick about my parents’ physical and mental well-beings, they have been convinced that I hold only the most malicious intentions and have no regard as to their lives. In other word, they have been convinced that I have been hoping for their haste…

ned death and care only their wealth.

I know many of their friends despise me, see only malignant elements in me and wish me to continue to suffer until I die in pain. I have been receiving many not-so-subtle hints, pushing me to consider ending my life voluntarily, as I have been deemed by unanimous consensus to be unworthy to continue living.

They are powerful and unrelenting people who I uses to hold tremendous respect for their achievements. However, after knowing how negatively they perceived me and willingly they were eager to destroy me, I lived in utter terror for the past 3+ years, and desperately tried to reach within myself to counter what they called “justice” served.

It is no use naming names. They can easily deny such plot and come after me in a different way. Moreover, no one would dare help me thus become their enemy.

I just refuse to believe being the hated enemy of my beloved is real. I have drained myself to think of a way to save them from countless veiled threats and attempts on their lives. I do not expect anything in return for I have owed them too much, but to be regarded as their enemy and threat to their lives has shattered my heart.

You can disregard your life to annihilate your nemesis, you cannot stop your most beloved to stop hating you,

To my sworn enemies, I will seriously consider ending my life voluntarily, if you guarantee the safety of my family, even knowing you are adept in betrayals and breaking promises. I just wish curses cast upon you will come true.

Addendum:

Words are cheap.

I totally missed That I do not need to prove to anyone of any crime; it is not like anyone will be willing to help. If I were correct, the powerful people who appeared to be my father’s friends have malicious intents against my family with100% certainty. People whom I do not know the identities want either me or my father suffer excruciating pain then die; that is the social norm of a society stacked with sadists.

台灣人重情感的概念是宣傳工具。政商菁英鬥爭的手段的狠毒冷血，認為人命天生卑賤的價值觀，和可為了個人面子，商業利益，以死亡恐懼來控制，或純粹以操縱人命當做休閒娛樂，我不應該不知道，任何人的性命和身家財產，隨時輕易可被犧牲掉。不要提到人權，把台灣看成有生命安全保障基礎的天堂是我思想的偏差。不想著乖乖賺錢，快樂享福，而意見太多，惹禍上身，沒有及時入境隨俗，是我犯的錯誤。

If that is the case, people would want to see me put in poverty and sickness and watch me suffer. I should understand that you do not have to be someone’s enemy to receive any lethal attack if attackers feel like destroying someone’s life and family. That is part of the tradition I could never forget.

If the targer is my father, I beome their weapon to hurt Father using my incompetence to shame and belittle Father; moreover, they already cause damages to my father’s health by medical means.

I do truly wish to see people and their clan fully purged clean. However, we are the ones ready to be slaughtered at any moment. Hatred has its use, but not now. I have lived in fear daily since 2009; it has been part of my life, as the authority had designed. Knowing the perpetrators’ frustration that I have not either committed suicide, become completely insane, or been banished out of my home, I anticipate atrocity to strike anytime to wipe out my or my family’s existence once for all.

I always wanted to ask, what have I done to deserve this? Now, I know enough not to ask such dumb questions. They do not need a reason to annihilate anyone; it is the traditional way.