Loss of Privacy
It does not matter if I write my thought here or on my paper diary because everything I write, say, do, react is being under surveillance. If I write down what I think, my thoughts are also being put under surveillance. I have repeated the above mentioned to myself so many time that I am sick of writing about it. I write down what I think so I will not be driven insane or incapacitated; in exchange, people can read my thoughts and emotions. I do not know whether other people are going through the same plights. I never asked. I fantasize that I have been some kind of danger and the surveillance is to protect me. That thought immediately evaporated every time I turned on the radio, television, opened the newspapers, or went online. Every day people on the street are pissed at me for something I did in my supposedly private place, and my life is not interesting at all. Now that I know for sure the surveillance is hostile combined with sporadic direct energy attacks, and my existence and well-being to many other mean little, or a lot in the negative way, I am essentially a fugitive. In the court of public opinions, you are guilty before you are proven innocent. Knowing that you have enemies and are actively seeking ways to terminate me without trace will not stop me from trying to defend my past, my present, my basic value, and my argument for my continuous existence. I repeat the same thing because I need constant affirmations life is still worth living even under current circumstances and I would find an emotional and physical shelter for my family and I, and people who suffered or are suffering the similar plights.
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