Jcyf94's Blog

If you do these (insert your numbers) things, I will be/not be (the states/ outcomes you wish you were in). 

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You have got the power

I had long been well aware.  

I followed the power naturally  

I believed it’s for Greater Good. 

I could have done better.  

Not better than I aspired,

But better than this shell,

A sorry excuse for an entity.  

– To those aware & heart-sunk

I wish empathy is possible. I cannot explain the complexity of the current situation I am facing but I am in utter despair. Unless you have felt the sensation I am feeling right now, it is impossible to know how I feel. Almost everyone would make the same conclusion if I describe my story of the past 4 years in full, but that would be the wrong conclusion. I am desperate for someone to believe what I say and know what to do precisely. If I am correct, I will never accept willingly that my life and my mental faculties are forever to be controlled and mandated by people whom I would never know. I risk humiliating myself to write because that is the only way I knew where I stand and how you feel. I wish I had learned to type Chinese faster. I am not a drama queen and I am really normal.