I feel exactly the same way about my situation exactly three years ago. It is not the chemical because I Have not taken the medication that supposedly cause me to feel that way for six months and half.
Every problem has its solution. It is just the case thatI have worked it out by myself. I seem to be others’ problem and that itself is my biggest problem because they have tried for five years trying to rid this problem that is me.
現在不能說不知道以暴制暴是社會常態，要避免父母被「親朋好友」慢性謀殺，只有go directly to the sources of death threats。
I really wish I had had the sense to disregard matters non-essential to the well-beings of my family and myself, and learnt to build relationships with friendly and trustworthy allies instead of unnecessary and formidable adversaries.
Everything is personal now. It has already been personal from the get-go.
First, identify the true enemy, if there is any, with actions instead of guessworks.
Second, remember what I have learnt from pain during the past 4 years and reverse engineer.
Third, rest until I can truly execute.
Shut up until then.
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