15 November 2012

Belligerance and hostility take over one’s nature when one’s born nature does not confine to the morphing but standardizing mode of communications, thus is not able to determine the proper reactions to certain verbal or sensory gestures. Maybe they are designed to create doubts and fears, and have successfully disrupted the target in the long run. One cannot break down a subjective experience when there is no reference point around which communication is established. This is wh something that is designed to be non-lethal becomes worse than lethal. It does not take away lives, but it destroys them to the point that are beyond repair. That is worse than death, and that is an act of torture. Nobody chooses to be voluntarily experimented on, and choose tortures over comforts. I have experienced pain for the past two hours in the head, and I am certain of its origin and have no control over such force. There was never a choice, and if I am cryptic, it is the reality. When i see ehat is being done onto me, I have no words to describe it. I am thinking about the word “genocide”, and from where I stand, it is not far-fetched or delusional, but I have reached my limit as to clear my name and reach for helps. I will KILL to keep holding onto hope, hope that things will get better.