9 December 2012
One cannot rationalize his emotional state of mind. Emotions are not supposed to be rational. I have burnt too many bridges and alienated too many people. The damages to self-actualization are irreversible when sentenses and phrases are used. The instincts to seek help and relief are inevitable when threats and terrors are present. I have no complaints. I was reading what I wrote 7 months earlier, and this is the best I can summarize why I wrote what I wrote and did what I did after then. It is a game to many but never to me.